MEMOIR | ART | PENCIL DRAWING | VISION LOSS

Learning to Draw While Losing My Sight

Why did I wait so long and why bother?

Patricia Timmermans
ENGAGE
Published in
7 min readJun 27, 2024

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A pencil drawing of a hand in front of a field of dailies, a butterfly is landing on the hand. The word Butterfly in calligraphy lettering as the caption
Image by author — I drew this for a friend whose sister passed away. She would feel her sister was often nearby in the form of a butterfly.

I’ve always had an art and music type of brain. As a child and teen, music was my worry-free zone. While listening to and also playing music, I felt creative and grounded.

On the art side, I loved calligraphy and beautiful cursive, which is essentially calligraphy, but I didn’t pursue art as I did music — my first love.

I was a bit of an unconventional kid; my childhood in a sentence would be:

I didn’t care that I was a weird kid, my friends were also weird, my parents were strict yet loving, and home was safe.

Looking back, I’m grateful.

During my first three decades of adulthood, I raised my kids, worked to keep my little family cared for, got married, then unmarried, married again, and retired from my career.

Then when the kids all left the nest, I looked in the mirror and asked myself, who am I, really?

I only half-heartedly loved my career and my glory days of music were better kept as fond memories than times to try and recapture.

I still had my piano, which wouldn’t require sight. I mention sight because I’d…

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Patricia Timmermans
ENGAGE

My guide dog and I visit schools to raise awareness for sight loss; the kids’ questions make great stories! Plus, I love books and writing book reviews. 🇨🇦